<<MysteryDeath>>

10:15 pm: havent updated in forever, i've been busy as hell

working 4 days a week, and besides that im skating and the usual. i got my switchflips down stuff pretty good, i still want to get one down whitesteps, i think we might be heading downtown this friday so that'll be a good deal. im gona get a seasonpass to whitetail or something local so i can drive up after school and snowboard till close and drive back. i laded the nollie b/s flip down the gap at vans but got wheel bite, we skated d.c. 3 weeks ago and sakted up at gold for a bit, i got a frontboard down it then this cop lady dude kicked us out so we went to freedom. i went to the fear factory, children of bodom, and lamb of god concert last sunday but it was f'n sold out when we got there so thats a bitch and a half.

i could hear children of bodom playing so it made me want to cry...not really but it did....i wanted to go to the atreyu show and all but that was sold out too.

im dying.

i ate a can of pineapple slices, drank the juice..then drank my green tea. thats a meal right there


till another day,


Live Love Die Burn

01:18 am: man im so tired and worked. the concert was so fucking cool, i cant even describe it. Himsa kicked it off really good, and as i lay dying and shadows fall totally kicked. the pit was so crucial, we all got beat but stayed in basically the whole night. best bands ever, best time ever. during himsa i was in the pit and his face to face with a dude during everything and cut above my nose, first blood, muahahha. got some random bruises everywhere else too. fantastic night, im going to sleep for a long ass time, take care everyone..

12:43 am: man its been the longest time. i finally got a job so i can get money now, to afford skate stuff mostly, and gas money. skated too no doubt, went to vans for the last 2 sessions tonight, it was cool. i think im gona have more pictures soon so i'll put em up on my community webshots. ill try to update this more frequently, or you can just wait again for another entry. but leave some comments if ya want and ill get back to ya, take care

09:18 pm: havent written in here in forever...but i finally got around to doing it. im eating a bangin ass chicken pot pie and i just got back from seeing dodgeball. one damn funny movie. we finished our video, its pretty cool. school is finally over, as of like, 3 days ago. i dont know what to write right now but feel free to leave some comments on this shit ass entry. ill try to think of something better later if i get around to it, take it easy>

10:32 pm: man i havent updated in awhile...i've been pretty busy lately. alright not really but still, i've finally gotten around to it. i got another elite skateboard to ride on, they're cool. went to fort belvoire lately and chill skated, it was finally awsome with the new board. school has been alright, sleeping in physics, took my two SOL's and watched videos. we're suppose to go to kings dominion for sports marketing but it got filled so me and a friend(s) are not gona go to school and just drive up there for the whole day. school ends the 18th i think..so we still got about 2 weeks. some car insurance b/s has happend to but dont really need to talk bout that. uhhm...i cant f'n wait for summer, it should be cool. hopefully with the job i hope to get, i can still go on vacation or wherever. its not too late but im tired as hell...i'll try to update in this again soon, leave some comments por favor

10:32 pm: i never update this piece of crap, hahaha, but oh well..im bored and i decided to. heavyweights was on tonight when i was eating dinner, that movie kicks. nothing much has been goin on lately, a lot of skating, girl problems in the mind, and i went to an interview today for a job...so i can actually have some money. we're basically done with our footage and are gona send it to yerkses (spelling?) skate shop...a.k.a. duke st. skate shop, or to elite boardshop...or both and see what happens, haha. i recommend you all buying the new local, Next Try video, you'll see an add for it when you go to www.skatenightonline.com, it should pop up, it has jack curtin, billy roper, jimmy mcdonald, bobby worrest, erich beilefeldt, and many more, so get it! i swear its sick. got the new atreyu cd, the curse..its awsome. and thats about it. would you care to be my girl? blahh, take it easy...

08:48 pm: went to d.c. the past couple days and skated, got a little bit of footage there and a little tonight at the parking garage on the bike rack. anywho im gona go, i gota eat my spaghetti, take it easy...

08:43 pm: its been awhile since i updated, you all have to remind me, heh. lets recap...ill just write what i did the past 3 days. basically school and skate.,.,we got hassled in alexandria and got out info taken down...but we sweet talked the cop so he didnt take our boards and fine us. friday night, me and justin met up with josh and matt and skated in alexandria and seven corners till 4 am. woke up saturday and chilled, went to get an application and the pizza place and got some food at the mall. also got a new skateboard. today went to fort belvoire and skated the park for about an hour or a little more, it was pretty fun, the ground was pretty slick. tomorrow i think justin wants to go downtown and maybe hit up gold rail too so that'll be cool. ill update this more later cuz i dont have much time, take it easy...

10:03 pm: hey whatsup.,im pretty bored and got chewed out by my parents for some stupid crap. anyways, i know i havent updated in awhile...my xanga junk is usually updated everyday or every other day,,www.xanga.com/likemyskateboard . i finally got a new skateboard and its pretty good, learned a new trick and relearned another...still working on one to get it better and i have another trick in queve. school is alright.,.nothing special about it. me and zach got out of sports marketing, easiest class in the world, to go "drop flyers off" to help sell some soccer tickets for dc united (stupid mandatory assignment)...but most stores didnt open till 10 so we drove around and got some money and 40 dollars in ones for mrs. kirby and we got some wendys then some mcdonalds. i need a job so i can get a car...and pay for the car, nowww. hopefully i can go to skatenight on sunday.,and have do something on saturday, its suppose to be a good day. yea this entry is kinda long and pointless but oh well, sorry about that. oh yea i made a lil community webshots thing when i was bored, feel free to check it.. http://community.webshots.com/user/blackandwhitedeath
take it easy--

07:43 pm: Sucker love is heaven sent.
You pucker up, our passion's spent.
My hearts a tart, your body's rent.
My body's broken, yours is spent.

Carve your name into my arm.
Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed.
Cuz there's nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.

Sucker love, a box I choose.
No other box I choose to use.
Another love I would abuse,
No circumstances could excuse.

In the shape of things to come.
Too much poison come undone.
Cuz there's nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every Me...he

Sucker love is known to swing.
Prone to cling and waste these things.
Pucker up for heavens sake.
There's never been so much at stake.

I serve my head up on a plate.
It's only comfort, calling late.
Cuz there's nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every Me...he

Every me and every you,
Every Me...he

Like the naked leads the blind.
I know I'm selfish, I'm unkind.
Sucker love I always find,
Someone to bruise and leave behind.

All alone in space and time.
There's nothing here but what here's here's mine.
Something borrowed, something blue.
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every Me...he

Every me and every you,
Every Me...he [x4]





I found the clues of a lost stay killed in motion
But I thought of it so like there's no other way it could've been done
Well, lay aside my fear, for a puzzle I wish not to play a part in it.
A heart stained in hate, a feeling of fear will play circles.

But you, you were my favorite
But you, you know, you were my favorite

I severed my ties to shroud this body under the streets of this city
And wait for the day when I am summoned to walk across the face
Well, slowly but clearer now, in visions that play and plague memories
I loved them with all as the son should to mother and father

But you, you were my favorite
But you, you know, you were my favorite

And I walk through the door, shaping the light of all life
With our eyes and reform, would I come as before
Pray you're not the only one
Pray you're not the only...
If I form mistakes, would I take them back?
If erasing them could, if erasing them would
But would they be the words that I would say
Your face and a door between
I've parted three ways
For you, the Newo that I love

Did you ever really know before my face shamed too late?
Did you ever really know before my mind scared to think?
Did you ever really know before my name sung to these?
Did you, did you, did you come clean in the end from the son?

Dear Ambelina, the prizes she's due to watch over me
Dear Ambelina, the prizes she saw to watch over me
I fought the decisions that called them lost
My mark in the revalant peace in this
I will come reformed
In short, for the murders of those I caught
I bless the hour that holds your fall
I will kill you all!!
I will call you (I will cross you out)
I found shells to
Burn your wings (burn your wings), and burn the core.

06:40 pm: hey all who dont read this, cuz i dont know anyone one here. just got home from skating, broke my damn board.,.,i need a job so i can keep paying for them, it sucks when i gota buy one like..every week or two at the most. i need to read up on how to make the pictures on my computer work on this thing. then ill post some up that i've taken, or just instant message me Alopez202 and ill send ya some, or some footage that i have of my and my friends. love related things suck lately. the one girl i fully like, and she'll never be into me. i feel like if i tell her how i feel(again), she still wont change her mind and at some point like me, even though that would be bitchin..,oh well theres nothing really i can do; you can only wish about that kind of stuff. im gona go for right now, blare some music and eat some food.,ill write more later, peace--

08:54 pm: went to dc today, skated a little and worked in my knee, it was a good day. i have one picture to post, but ill put up more from today later.

07:13 pm: ey all fabulous people
my life has been helll lately, i havent skated since tuesday cuz i hyper fuckin extended my knee, ah
friday we had our bitchin pellet gun fight in fusion, twas awsome
and all ive done today is eat cereal, ice my knee, listen to music, and sleep...but when it gets better...


I fought the decisions that call and lost
My part as the relevant piece in this
I will come reformed
In short, for the murders of those I court
I bless the hour that holds your fall
I will kill you all!!


i want to leave here to visit somewhere neww, that would be crucial
my stomach is gargling at me, i need to fill'er up . see ya

06:45 pm: whats goin down, im sittin here completely bored. I went to vans yesterday and got a day pass. first 20 minutes i was skating the hip...did some tricks over it, then tried nollie b/s flip over it...buttt my front foot didnt catch and landed and i hyper-extended my knee. so its fucked up right now, and its hard to walk...i wana skate so badly but i cant until it gets better, and i dont know when thats gona happen. oh yea and being single has its ups and downs, im currently in the down area.,.,nothing goes right lately, eh.,it just makes me want to skate twice as hard and listen to so much music. anywho, im gona go fill up on my grilled cheese sandwhich, peace--



some pic of me...probably after a shower or after skating, i cant remember


skate picture i took


my snowboard

10:09 am: no school today, they thought it was going to be freezing rain crap so they cancelled it..and it turns out to be rain. hopefully the rain will wash off the salt and sandy stuff off the roads so we can skate street, so today we'll probably get day passes to vans and be there for today. more stuff later...




"Sic Transit Gloria...Glory Fades"

Keep the noise low.
She doesn't wanna blow it.
Shaking head to toe
while your left hand does "the show me around."
Quickens your heartbeat.
It beats me straight into the ground.

You don't recover from a night like this.
A victim, still lying in bed, completely motionless.
A hand moves in the dark to a zipper.
Hear a boy bracing tight against sheets
barely whisper, "This is so messed up."

Upon arrival the guests had all stared.
Dripping wet and clearly depressed,
he'd headed straight for the stairs.
No longer cool, but a boy in a stitch,
unprepared for a life full of lies and failing relationships.

(Up the stairs: the station where
the act becomes the art of growing up.)

He keeps his hands low.
He doesn't wanna blow it.
He's wet from head to toe and
his eyes give her the up and the down.
His stomach turns and he thinks of throwing up.
But the body on the bed beckons forward
and he starts growing up.

The fever, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe
you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathed
but now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.

She hits the lights.
This doesn't seem quite fair.
Despite everything he learned from his friends,
he doesn't feel so prepared.
She's breathing quiet and smooth.
He's gasping for air.
"This is the first and last time," he says.
She fakes a smile and presses her hips into his.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He's holding back from telling her
exactly what it really feels like.

He is the lamb, she is the slaughter.
She's moving way too fast and all he wanted was to hold her.
Nothing that he tells her is really having an effect.
He whispers that he loves her,
but she's probably only looking for...

(Up the stairs: the station where
the act becomes the art of growing up.)

So much more than he could ever give.
A life free of lies and a meaningful relationship.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He waits for it to end
and for the aching in his guts to subside.

The fever, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe
you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathed
but now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.

Up the stairs: the station where
the act becomes the art of growing up.

The fever, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe
you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathed
but now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.

05:08 pm: whatsup, today was boring the past couple days have been crappy hopefully i can go snowboarding soon been to vans a couple times lately, good times anddd its superbowl day today, so that means all the food you can eat, take care--

08:23 pm: Apparently with no surprise
To any happy Flower
The Frost beheads it at its play-
In accidental power-
The blonde Assassin passes on-
The Sun proceeds umoved
To measure off another Day
For an Approving God

02:59 pm: sifting through weathered photo albums looking for gloriously aged polaroids of places you have never been. A place to accept that you don't really exist. "Smile for the camera sweet heart, I really want to immortalize this moment" but just remember the first step in forgetting is destroying all the evidence. with friends like you who needs subtext. THIS IS A 44. CALIBER LOVE LETTER STRAIGHT FROM MY HEART. Straight from my heart (deal with it)

10:42 am: cold
hello
another day gone, now is today. it's really cold right now, suppose to start snowing today, tonight, and tomorrow morning, so that'll be cool. im really bored, incense and candles are burning in my room right now, i need to get music working in there again so i can lay around in there. i dont really have much more to write so ill leave ya alone now.



sittin here in this dark corner, kill me silently so no one heres, i wouldnt cry, only watch as i die, here lies the soul of sucker boy, you watched me fall as i failed, hang me up and puncture with nails, bleed slowly...from here on out this is me, no more worries, no more cares, dull figured and absent minded, i lay here stranded and not open minded, one last poisonous kiss a cure for the itch, from this damned society, nothing more than a bitch. screaming through the night, here my wispers without my sight...cast away and let him be, for he is nothing and shall never be, no path to be followed only left to be swallowed, revered from the past in this small hourglass, you cowards afraid of what im not, look into the eyes of something different, maybe you'll see the broad prospective, of what was me. full of lies, explode with the truth, you fakers make me sick, chose a side or no side at all, this is the last thing anyone needs, punish your ways with a declined fall, here we all are, now nothing at all...

09:49 pm: today
whatsup, well i've kinda added a new look to it, i still dont know what im doing but oh well. skated safeway ledges today with big mike, justin, and melod. it was an alright session. day before me and justin skated van dyke with yoder and mikey king. tomorrow we're goin to D.C. and skate some freedom plaza, or white steps, and gold rail probably. hopefully i'll have a good session, i want new stuff down gold rail. i went into the burrito joynt the other day and got some food, i noticed alot more people are going there, its awsome. free chips when you get your food "for here", can it get any better...probably but oh well. me and justin are sponsored by the burrito joynt, haha but we still havent talked to the manager in awhile about our t-shirts..i want some free tacos and stuff..but the shirts stil kick.







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